Feeling like a kettle ready to blow it's top off!

That's exactly how I feel right now. Like a tea pot that's about to burst. I don't like feeling this overwhelmed and having all this anxiety/anger build up inside. School has officially started as of yesterday, but I didn't even bother going to class. Why? Because what's the point of trying to get a validation sticker when the bursars office is closed. I need a bill stating that I owe nothing in order to get the sticker. But I'm not even sure I can get that sticker since I have a stop from last semester that was issued by the bursars office. I swear this fucking surgery has really fucked everything up for me. Landing in the hospital back in Nov and finding out I have endo has ruined so much in my life. I had to take time off of school making me a semester behind. Now I will not graduate in two years and it will more than likely take me a whole extra semester to do so. It cause me to loss my grant that I am now fighting to keep. And of course I haven't heard a word yet as to if I won the appeal or not. I shouldn't have even lost the grant to begin with since I should have been exempt due to my medical leave. Ughhhh I just hate this all right now. I need to go to the doctor but I don't want to. I feel ashamed to go. I don't want to see the shrink, but I need meds. And I know my gp won't give them to me. I wish he would. I guess I'll just have to buck up and either find a shrink or go to my gp and beg. Man if things could just go good for one straight year for me for once.