Signs signs everywhere

I swear I'm losing it.  I'm seeing signs in EVERYTHING lately.  I really need to cut this crap out.  Everything is not a sign of something.  I know this is just my mind playing tricks on me, and damn it it's doing a damn good job at the moment.  So not fair.  If only my mind could focus on other things, but alas it cannot. 

*Le Sigh*

Trying so hard not to obsess...

But it's freaking hard not to.  I really don't want to go into details over why I'm obsessing right now.  I'll let the cat out of the bag eventually, but I'm not ready to share with the world just yet.  I just can't stand when I get this way.  It freaking consumes my mind all damn day long and I can't afford for that to happen.  I have work and family to think about first.  Thankfully I'm still on summer break from classes.  But I bet if I had classes going on right now it would help me keep my mind busy.  The fact that work is kinda slow doesn't help either.  

Ughhhh I  hate this shit!

Stupid Weather

This stupid heat wave that was unbearable for most of the country totally fucked me up in more ways than one.  Not only did I have to leave work early on Thursday in order to avoid an asthma attack, but we also experienced rolling brown outs and a reduction in power.  No big deal really since we still had enough power for the a/c to work and for me to be able to use my nebulizer machine. 

However, the one thing that didn't survive during all of this was my voice over phone line.  For some reason it stopped working.  And I didn't realize until today when I was getting repeat phone calls from my SIL trying to talk to the kids.  Here I am insisting that my house phone cannot possibly be on call forwarding since I didn't turn it.  Yet it was, so now Liz looked like the asshole.  Just great. 

Another lovely fact was that Doni told Kev last night the phone was messed up but he never bothered to tell me.  Good thing T has her own cell phone and can dial out in case of an emergency.  Ugh so now once I'm home I must try and fix this damn phone on top of cooking dinner so that my monsters don't go hungry.

Home At Last

After three weeks with my Mom, my kids are finally home with me.  I've so enjoyed my time alone but I really did miss my monsters.  Kev with his one liners, and T with her silly teenage antics.  Now my house is full of noise, toys, laughter and love.  What else could a mama want more?

Trying not to lose it today

That will be my goal of the day.  To not flip the fuck out on someone at the office.  I could go on for days with a rant but I will not.  I will just attempt to keep my temper in check and I pity the mother fucker who does truly rub me the wrong way today.

Cautiously Optimistic

That's how I've been feeling the past few days.  It surprises me to know that back in 2009 I never would have imagined I would be feeling the way I do lately.  What surprises me even more is the fact that I got the big guy on the same page with me.  Shocker in this regard.  I just hope that what I'm dreaming about does come to fruition.  I also hope that if it does, things go smoothly and that I can handle whatever is thrown my way.

Burnt Booty

That's what I have.  I nice burnt ass.  Just fucking wonderful.  Of all the things to burn on my body, it has to be my back side.  This damn chronic pain meds the doc put me on is not conducive to my summer time fun.  Granted I'm not a huge fan of the outdoors, but once in a while I do enjoy some fun in the sun, especially with my kids.  There is nothing that screams, literally screams, fun like trying to sit on the toilet while your cheeks are burnt.  Boy I just hope I don't have to suffer long with this one.  As normal, FML folks.

Just relaxing on a Saturday Morning

And it feels damn good.  No husband, no kids, and the cats are sleeping.  Ahhh just perfect.  I'm getting to watch cartoons and catch up on my soaps with no interruptions other than the ones I create for myself.  There is nothing I enjoyed more as a kid growing up than Saturday morning cartoons. I'm so loving that I get to relive that with the Hub channel. HA! Leave it to a TV station to make me happy.  Getting to watch shows like Jem, Batman Beyond, G.I. Joe, and Transformers really brings back the good memories.  

Lets see what the rest of my Saturday is going to bring.  It's a beautiful day out there and I can always clean house tomorrow.  It will give me an excuse not to drive upstate. Tee hee I hate those long drives and my back hates them even more, so I avoid them at all cost.  Geesh I rather clean the house than take a drive.  How sad is that? lol  Oh well at least it gives me a reason to be productive this weekend.

Damn I suck at this

I know I've said a thousand times, but I will say it again. I suck at blogging.  I have so much going on in my head that you figure I would be able to blog easily.  But nope, no such luck.  I guess I'm more of a private person than I thought I was.  Either that or I truly just don't have much to share.  I tend to share when I'm upset or angry, which I haven't been that much of lately.  I guess that's a good thing.  That means that things are going relatively smoothly.  Truth be told, it's not.  I just choose not to bitch about it in public I guess.  Maybe one day I'll get better at this.  But until that day comes, I will suck at blogging and accept it.