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Get your horoscope for today, Friday 5 December 2008

Bad news may be coming your way today, but deep down inside, you knew this was coming -- and you are emotionally prepared to handle it. Just focus on the things in your life that can you affect, like your job and your friendships. It's healthiest for you to let go of the things you cannot control. The news of the day will remind you that while you can't always get what you want, you have more power than you know what to do with. Start thinking of new ways to use it.

I did get some not so pleasant news and I was prepared to handle it for a change. Well, now it's just a sit and wait game.

Why oh why did I do it?

Impulse shopping is a horrible thing. I found Kev's bday toy on Amazon for only 35 bucks, 20 off the normal price, and I just had to get the limited edition ice blue ds lite bundle for 135. I know it's a great steal, total was 180 to have em both sent here by the second. I don't really have the money for this but I couldn't help it. Ugh.

Too funny

What Your Cupcake Says About You

At parties, you tend to be dramatic. You dress up, and you make sure you get attention... one way or another. You have lots of restraint in your life. You never are victim to your desires. The most important thing in your life is passion. You are dominant, vain, and a bit of a show off. To know you is to worship you.

The Cupcake Test

Yay happy post for a change

Well, let's just say I've been having a pretty crappy week. Granted I've had some good reports from my daughter and school, so not all bad, but still hectic and crazy. My boss has this friend, pretty much his bff, he did our buildings xmas card and they came out great. I asked him if he did them, he said yup that's what I do. So I said awesome how much for wedding invitation. He then asked me if they were for me, which of course they are. I responded with my yes, and he tells me for free. WOOT!!! He said it will be my wedding gift. I'm so freaking happy, I'm getting my invites for free. woot woot!!!!!

I'm just so done

I swear I really regret the day I said yes to my job. It's been a nice paycheck with a great boss, but the job itself and the people have been nothing but trouble. Everyone else and their mother fucks up, so of course it falls on my lap to be the fucking target. I'm done with it. Now they went and hired a project manager, very cool nice dude, however, now that he's hear the residents all think that I no longer need to be here. They forget that this guy is not here full time, and that this guy isn't even fully under contract. And that I just cannot go back to my old job at the other office like that. They filled that position so I would have no job with no income if they just let me go. But you know what maybe it's for the best. I'll try to get unemployment until I get placed at a law firm. Boy am I glad I already started looking and have my resume out there. Nothing like coming to work at a place where the majority want you fired.

Our Halloween

I can't do it anymore

I can't pull off my fake face of happiness. I don't know I just feel like crawling in the bed and not coming out ever. I had a horrible thought last night. I feel so damn emotional and distant from the world. It's causing problems at home and in school. I've been so damn down that I didn't even notice something major that I've been pushing my love on. :( I feel like I want to cry and beat someone all at once. Ugh I hate this shit, I'm on fucking meds, I shouldn't be feeling down and what not. I wish I could just explain it all but I can't. I can hardly understand it my damn self. I just fucking it all and hate myself at the moment.

LMFAO!

What Your Love of Peanut Butter Cups Says About You

You are hedonistic... sometimes to the point of being greedy. You love to eat, and there's no chance you're sharing your candy! While you may be greedy, it's with good reason. You have great taste. The things you love are worth loving, and it's no wonder you crave them.

What Does Your Favorite Candy Say About You?

Saw this and had to repost

Free Dunkin Donut Coffee Sample

I hate my sinuses

Yet another sinus infucktion! I just want it to pass already. I hate this shit, it's time to see another doctor who can actually try to do something for me, instead of just telling me politely that I'm fucked. DOH!

It was time for a color change

Before


And after

Too Funny

This is Love

Waiting

That seems to be all that I've been doing. If I'm not waiting on my grades, I'm waiting on test results for T. And if not that then I'm waiting on the dates to get here to take her for further testing. I honestly feel like I'm in a state of nothingness. Everyone is asking me how am I doing and what's going on. I truly don't know how to respond. I'm really not thinking ahead and only taking things one day at a time. I mean damn what else is there to do in a case like this. I already know how I can get, and if I worry or make myself sick because of my anxiety, I will be no good to my daughter who needs a strong Mami right now. People ask if I'm fine. Am I? No! Of course I'm not fine, but jeez what am I supposed to do about it? All I can do is just take it day by day and cross those bridges when I get to them. Truthfully, I'm a wreck inside and scared out of my gourd. Kev even noticed that I've been a bit off with him. I truly don't mean to be, but I can't help it. It is now his turn to do the campus education thing and be busy. I took my 2.5 years, now it's his turn. Maybe a small part of me is upset that I'm pretty much dealing with most of this alone, but it's not his fault. I don't know. All I do know is that I feel worn and tired, but I can't let that over run my life. I know when I get worn out I get short fused. So he is getting some of that. I don't mean to dish it to him, but I can't help it. He's working full time going to school full time and is in a bit of a selfish mode, granted he's been there for a while now, but this time it's understandable. I just wish he would stop for a moment and realize there are other things going on besides his job and school work. Anyways enough ramblings. Whatever comes comes and I'll deal with it as best as I can.

Too cute

Create your own family sticker graphic at pYzam.com

I did it

Emotional

I'm feeling so fucking emotional this week. I know it's hormones due to af, but life is also a huge factor. My face has broken out something nasty and I feel like I just want to burst out into tears right now. I'm supposed to be having a happy week, after all my graduation is tomorrow. The way I feel I totally want to skip it, but I have my mom coming out and I paid for my cap and gown already. Life just fucking sucks ass this month.

Party Time

My friend is getting married soon and tonight is her bacheloret party so I'm gonna go and have a hell of time. I need to get my mind off of things so this will be wonderful.

Never Forget

May all those souls rest in peace.

Antonio, no not my son

But my cousin. He's been living with bone cancer and a brain aneurysm for almost 8 years now, but it looks like he could be nearing the end. My mother informed me today that she has to get back home to him fast because he's been real sick. She has been caring for him on and off when he's been sick for the past few years. My aunt just doesn't have the time since she's working her ass off to take care of him. I just hate this, it's so not fair to my family. My poor aunt, she has to be going through so much pain. This decade hasn't been good to her, and the last two years have been the worst. She just can't catch a break with her children or grandchildren. Her first born grandchild, Brianna, had a horrible asthma attack that put her in a coma. She lost so much oxygen that she is now pretty much a vegetable. A once brilliantly gifted girl is now a fucking vegetable. She's celebrated her Quintenera in the hospital barely able to move her body or stay awake. Now Tony is on his way out too. We've all known this was coming, and living 8 years after only being given 2 max is wonderful. It's just so fucking sad and heart breaking to watch. What did my family do to get such horrible health?

Ugh time to stop before I lose it and I must keep it together.

Life is strange

I don't know really what to say other than life is just strange. My mind is in a spot that I never imaged it would be, but it is there now. So now I will just sit back and reflect. Let my mind, heart, and soul work as one.

Just want to run and cry

I swear when you think things are getting good, they're not! I'm so used to dealing with my own health issues that they don't phase me. But when it comes to my kids, I freaking lose it! And can you blame any parent really? What I thought was just nothing, turned out to be something. So now I have to take my poor daughter to not one but two different specialist to get her looked at. My poor little girl is a scaredy cat as is, so now she's truly worried and sad. I hate looking at my girl that way. And no matter how many times I say it will be OK, it's not enough for her. I just want my little girl to be fine. She's growing up to be a beautiful young lady and I don't want her to have to deal with health issues so early on in life.

Got my tattoo

Well I finally got my tattoo last night. It stands for all that I have endured while going to school and yet I prevailed. It feels so damn good to be done getting my associates. I can't wait till graduation next month. I haven't marched in a graduation since Junior High. This graduations means so much to me and I'm thankful for everyone that has helped me along the way.

Song of the day is.......

No more classes no more books no more teachers dirty looks..... lmao come on folks you know this one sing it with me. lmao

Even though I have started my educational career at Kaplan online towards my BA, I feel like that will be nothing since I have officially finished taking classes at my local community college. I am done! I conquered the school and will be marching down that isle next month with the other graduates. I can't freaking way. I was so excited to be done that I could not sleep for shit last night. But hey I don't care I done with campus classes. No more rushing to school now I can just go home after work, pick up my lil guy and be there for my daughter. Man knowing that feels fucking awesome!!!!!!

Busy busy busy

That's what I've been a busy little bee. I'm just about finished with classes at school, but started Kaplan online already. But as of this Thursday no more on campus classes for me YAY!!!!!!! I can't believe I finally fucking did it. I can't wait to be walking down that isle to get my degree next month. I'm so damn excited and nervous. But I'm going to do it and make my family proud!

OMG Too Fucking Funny!!!!!

Now tell me this ain't true!!!!!

see famous look-a-like faces

Now you understand the past 8 years!!!!

BLAH!

BLAH! That's how I feel, just BLAH!

Worth reading

This in an email I got this morning and I must say I like it.

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

“If you don't send this to at least 8 people....Who cares?” -- George Carlin

George Carlin mourned as counterculture hero - Yahoo! News

George Carlin mourned as counterculture hero - Yahoo! News

Now this is one comedian whom I shall miss dearly. Growing up watching his acts made me open my eyes to the world. He was one of the few that took real life issues and tackled them. This man was a legend in his time and now will be one past his time.

R.I.P

My pictures from today

We took the kids to the park for a little bit, and I took some pictures while I was there.

Cramp

I hate af, I hate cramps, I hate being a women at times!!!!
The End

Vote Repulican!

This is just scary

http://www.nydailynews.com/news/galleries/bronx_fire/bronx_fire.html
http://gothamist.com/2008/06/16/two_more_die_from_middle_village_fi.php

There was a fire in my old neighborhood yesterday. I swear Queens is known for Fathers Day fires, I hate it. But what really freaked me out about this fire is the fact, that had I not moved into my place now, I would have moved into a house right around the corner from this fire. That building was just finished being put up about 2 years ago. They put apartments on top and the stores on the bottom. It was looking good for that area, it tends to be a big desolate. Man I'm just glad that I moved from Middle Village and that I didn't take the place instead. I'm sorry for the deaths this fire has cost, but I'm so happy my family wasn't in the mist of that chaos.

Father's Day

Pretty uneventful over here but hey I like it that way. T's friend left this morning, lil man was pretty good all day. Big Kev stayed on the computer playing around with paint shop. He's into making album covers now. I swear that man never sticks to one thing. I've never seen someone be so multi talented but never quite perfectly skilled at something. Well, scratch that he's perfectly skilled at DJ'n so that's something he's always stuck with.

Diner was pretty good, I made mashed potatoes and whole chicken. Wasn't in the mood for salad or corn so no other sides. Brunch was pretty decent too, we ordered from the local dinner, they're good but could have been better today. I still need to call my bro and wish him a happy fathers day. The punk spent the day at his bil's in the pool. Of course they only invited her side of the family, we're not that important to them. *roll* Oh well, it's all good I had a fine day playing games on the net, and watching zombie movies all day. Man I love gory movies, I must be some sick fuck to enjoy it so much. *giggle*

There is just one thing I would change about today. The fact that I have cramps galore and can't stand that AF is on her way. I swear I wish these damn people can get shit right. Between the doc, pharm, and insurance I can't get the right freaking birth control pills. If I'm going to keep getting af then I'm not going to bother with these damn pills. I'll find something else or just not take anything. I'm very fed up with af and endo and really don't want to deal with it much more. But oh well I'm a woman and have to.

Bored

Your Mind is Green

Of all the mind types, yours has the most balance. You are able to see all sides to most problems and are a good problem solver. You need time to work out your thoughts, but you don't get stuck in bad thinking patterns. You tend to spend a lot of time thinking about the future, philosophy, and relationships (both personal and intellectual).

What Color Is Your Mind?

Now this one is on the money

You Will Be an Unconventional Bride!

You're probably the type of girl who never considered getting married - until you met *him* You're not a big fan of white dresses, church weddings, or cheesy DJ's That's okay - you'll do it your way... whether that means a Vegas wedding or guys as bridesmen While you may not toss the bouquet (or have anyone to toss it to), it will still be the most romantic day of your life!

What Kind of Bride Will You Be?

The grades are in

And I gotta say I did pretty darn well. In Statistics I got a C, which when you think about it is great cause I truly should have failed. In English 102 I got a B, she wouldn't give me anything better than a B+ on my papers, and I wasn't going to rewrite B papers when I had other classes to worry about. In Intro to Philosophy, I got an A, and I didn't expect anything less. That teacher was nice but kinda off in a cute way. The class however, barely spoke so there was about 5 of us including myself who kept it going. And in my Civil Litigation class I got another A. Another class I didn't expect anything less in. I aced all her exams, did her two projects with no problem, and have a great rapor with her, she will be an awesome reference one day. So all in all I have a term GPA of 3.250, with a cumulative GPA of 3.384. Not the 3.5 that I wanted but it should still be enough to graduate with honors. I can't believe it, just one more class to go and I'm walking down that isle accepting my degree. Me a college graduate. Never would I have imagined it. I mean I always wanted it, but the way life had led me, I just didn't expect it. I'm so proud that I've been able to do it and keep on chugging no matter what obstacles were thrown at me.

Woot world here I come even stronger than before!

Just wanted to share the pics I took today

I was asked by some friends, Dea particularly, to take pics of the sculpture made of erector sketch toys in Rockefeller Center. So after work I stopped by and took a few pics.

This is my bosses dog, Kate. I want one just like her one day.

Me being silly

Well, that's all I got for now. Nothing spectacular to say just wanted to share the pics.

A photo blog?

I've been looking at blogs here and there, and I've noticed lots of photo blogs. I must say, I've seen some beautiful pictures. I bow my hat to you ladies that find beauty is so many things. But this now has me thinking, what if I start one? I don't see why I can't, I just got a new camera for mothers day. And it takes really good pics. But then I also think how lazy I can get when it comes to uploading pics, and what time will I really have to take pictures? However, I do have the sd card, and my laptop does have a slot. So I guess it's not impossible to do with a bit of effort. I am after all gonna have some time on my hands again. Well, there you have it, it's not impossible and it's worth the try. Let's see what I come up with. *giggle*

Happy Birthday My Lil Girl

I can't believe it's been twelve years already. My girl is not staying small. She's almost if not already my height. Beautiful as can be, and smart too. She's going to make one hell of a knock out when she's fully a woman. Not that's not a knock out already. lol Hey I'm her mom and I'm entitled to brag about it. teehee I'm just so glad that I'm done with classes for now. I get to go home and make her favorite dinner, tacos, and cut a cake without worrying about anything else. :) That feels great!

Happy Birthday My Lovely T.
Mami Loves You!!

Yup it's been a while!

But you know me never blog constantly. So let's see the latest? I passed the first session of the spring semester. Now all I have to do is pass my summer class and I will graduate. Man it's been on long and hard road. But I traveled it and now I'm nearing the end. Boy am I glad I stuck to my guns and didn't let anything stop me. Not my hospitalization, drama at home, moving mad times, having surgery twice. NADA!!!! And to top it off I came home to this

Now tell me that's not the sweetest thing in the world?! He makes everything that I do worth it. It's all for him and his big sis!