Let the MADNESS Begin!

It's that time again.  Time for school to start and for me for run around like a mad person burning the candle at both ends while I work, go to school, and take care of the family.  I have to admit, it was very nice having a break from being super mom.  But it's time to dawn my cape again.  It's a bird, it's a plane, no it's just Super Liz!  Ahhhhhhh

Babies and Bellies Everywhere

That's all I've been seeing lately.  Even in my fucking dreams. The past two days alone have been dreams of fairly young babies and what not.  Then when I'm out and about if I'm not seeing a new baby I'm seeing a big ol baby belly.  Maybe the world is trying to tell me something. lol  Who knows but it's darn annoying that's for sure.

Must remember underlined

 I should post this for my boss to read and for myself.  I'm not superhuman and I can break!

 August 19, 2011

Capricorn (12/22-1/19)

When it becomes dramatically clear that you can't do it all today, you'll have to let go of some of your obligations. But this is very good news -- and it will send a message to someone powerful that you are not superhuman. Adjusting expectations is important, and doing so is sometimes necessary if you want to keep harmony in your life. You'd do well to adjust some of your own expectations of someone close to you. The fact that the two of you are not on the same page isn't a problem.

WOW I can walk to this place from my house

http://newyork.cbslocal.com/2011/08/17/sanitation-truck-dangles-from-building-after-smashing-through-depot-wall-in-woodside/

I do enjoy reading these

August 12, 2011

1. Capricorn (12/22-1/19)

   A lovely, quiet morning could evolve into a very active afternoon -- and a very hectic evening. Your chances of a good night's sleep are slim. You probably already know who will be responsible for the increased drama, and you won't mind the inconvenience at all. This person is making some waves and causing some major changes in your life -- but luckily, these changes will be very positive for you and your people! So how do you want to celebrate?
   
   Hmm I wonder who that person can be. I'm hoping it's my husband, I would love for some waves to happen and major changes to take place.
   
   

So annoyed

I've really come to a point where I hate my office and most of the people who work here.  Sad part is that the office is very small and has only about 7 people working here.  Everyone expects me to fucking work miracles all the damn time.  They assume I have ten heads and twenty arms that can just get it all done RIGHT NOW!  I'm sorry but I have tons of other shit to do that takes priority over your petty shit.  Look up your own damn exhibits. If you can't find shit that has been properly filed on the fucking database then the problem is you.  I don't give a fuck if you have a deadline of today by the boss.  I work directly for the boss and he dictates my deadlines.  Not some fucking associate who hasn't even been here for a fucking year.

Set The Bar Too High

It hit me last night that my problem is that I set the bar too high for myself.  I expect way too much out of myself and life at times.  I need to remember when I do things that the way I envision them might not always be the way the turn out.  Life has its own idea of how things are going to work and flow.  I'm just here to follow and hopefully survive it mentally sound.  What I put myself through this past week must not repeat itself.  I need to remember that things will happen in their own time and I cannot rush it along.  All I can do it lay the ground work and let time take over.

Hopefully, I can keep all of this in mind as I travel my journey.  That way when things don't go as I envisioned it won't be so mentally challenging. I just need to keep rolling with the punches and live life one day at a time.

What a Week!

Geesh it's been one hell of a fucking week.  This had to had been one of the most stressful weeks I've experienced in a long ass time.  Tonight calls for a major texas sized drink of something super fucking strong.  I don't know what yet, but I will be drunk by 9pm tonight.  The only reason I expect not to be drunk is because I'll still be watching Rise of the Planet of the Apes.  So bring on the weekend cause it's been a hell of a fucking week. 

Stressed OUT!

OK normally I can handle stress really well, but this time I'm not handling it well at all.  This time it's more than just stress, it's emotional stress.  And that is one kind of stress I don't do well with.  It fucks with my head and heart.  It makes an angry bitter bitch that ends up being a hot mess who tends to take out my anger on the world.  I don't like myself when I'm that way.  And I know others don't like me when I get that way. Honestly, I don't give a flying fuck what others like or not about me, but I do care how I feel about myself. 

So with that in mind, I will try to relax and just reflect on life and attempt to see where it takes me.  Hopefully it will be a good place.

My heart just broke a little

I went from completely crazed and angry to having a broken heart in .05 seconds flat.  As I sit here at my desk at work, I'm ready to break down in to a fit of tears.  However, that is not my style.  Instead I will curse, be a bitch, and crack jokes wherever I can.  But I swear I feel like the world is against me right now.

Fucking shit!

fuck you fuck off and die go play in traffic or in front of an oncoming train.  Fuck you you fucking fuck!

Nope don't feel better.  Son of a mother fucking bitch!

Hurry Up Time

I really wish I had the ability to mess with time.  Today I would make it go faster.  On the weekends I would make it go slower.  It's just horrible that I really want to find something out but can't just yet.  I have to wait to later this afternoon.  And even then I won't know if I'll have the answer I'm hoping for.  I feel like a mad person and I'm not amused.  I just wish I could seriously know the answer one way or another and get it over with. 

*le sigh*

When will I learn?

Really?! When will I learn to really listen to myself.  I do things that I know I shouldn't be doing cause I know how it will turn out.  But yet I still do it only confirm my initial thought.  Why do I drive myself insane this way?  Why can't I just be the type of person who practices what they preach in this regard?  I can dole out advice with the best of them but yet I can't even begin to follow my own advice.  How stupid is that?  All I need is to trust my instincts better and learn to have some fucking patience for once in my damn life. OK so I do have some patience and can wait for lots of things.  But when it's something I want deep down in my heart, I have no patience.  Instead I get impatient do stupid shit to just let myself down.  I swear I'm a gluten for punishment.  One day I'll learn.  I might be on my death bed when I finally learn it, but I swear I fucking will learn.